Ok.. so it was my sister's 18th Birthday yesterday. I had to much fun. And I'm sure she did too.
Anyway, her debut was planned. It was a Bratz themed party. She had so many guests. Which led me to having this self pity mode once again.
You see, my debut was a surprise party. It was because i did not really want to celebrate it. WHY? Well parties need planning and they cost a lot. I did not want to have a party since we are not that rich. I thought it was just a waste of money. And another reason why i did not want to celebrate is because I was afraid that no one would come. Yup!!! This is still my fear up til now. Whenever I think of something, I feel that no one will buy it. (That was why when there were a lot of people in the ARWAN XMAS party, I was super dee duppery happy)
Just a few minutes ago, my mom was asking me why i did not have as much gifts as my sister. Well, my barx is kuripot i think (yeah we all are, im sure of that). But then, I thought to myself, maybe not that much people care about me. I don't know. I don't really know what to think. But I still defended my friends. I told her that gifts were not important as long as we know deep inside that we are real friends to one another. Yeah, cheesy!
Anyway, right now I am wondering if i die, would people come and visit me? Well, when i die i want to be cremated pronto. So that there would be no funeral. So that no one would know if people actually knew me or not.
Is is the number of friends you have that is important or is it the quality of the relationships that you have?
I admit that I am a bit jealous since she is always the center of attention in her circle of friends. She is more people oriented than I am. She has great leadership skills. She has been president of a club for two times. Her friendster network is so huge. She always has a hectic schedule.
**Pauline, Happy Birthday!!! I am proud of you.***
Me? Well virtually, i do not exist i guess.
Can't i live in my own little world where everybody knows me?
Right now, i just feel like useless crap! I am FAILURE personified.
*sigh*
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asuus pheebs! *am i ruining ur drama mode?* sorry! pero ano ka ba don't think that! wag tau padala sa mga comparing to our sisters..i can relate yahknow. anway...let's start a count of friends who cares for you
1. Maya (nax childhood nickname pa!)
u have no idea! how fun kang kasama! tawa mo pa lang...FUN NA! 22o.. had fun w/u at pauline's birthday. tnx for the company! sana maka-ube pa tau.. diba nga we're talkin abt how much fun we had nung magkavillage pa tau...bata pa tau..walang gnwa kundi maglaro..kaya laging masaya. sana kasiii di na lang kau lumipta para sobrang tambak na ating memories..hehe keep in touch let's UBE!:D ano ba ako, parang blogpost ko na toh! hahaha
luvyah pheebs! ube soon!!!
Phoebe!!! Ang tagal ko ng d navivisit site mo.. Kumusta naman may self pity mode ka pang nalalaman?haha
People around you may neglect to tell you sometimes, but you really are a great friend!! And I, for one, value our friendship a great deal..=) Magiging sobrang iba ng ateneo life ko kung wala ang kakulitan, kabaliwan at pang-aapi nating dalawa!haha Seriously, I'm so lucky to have you in my life.. And I'm 100% sure that there are a LOT of people who care for you too.
I agree with you, quality is more important than quantity. Sabi nga ni Fr. Dax, good friends are those whom you become friends with just because you're classmates. Great friends are those who stay close to you even if you don't see each other anymore. You remain friends just because. Actually, d ganyan ung sinabi niya pero same naman ung thought..haha
Basta, you're not a failure ok? And you will never be. Magaling ka sa maraming bagay so don't ever think that you're useless..
Loveyah phoebs!!! Kita kits na lang sa school..=) And after grad din dapat kasi great friends tayo!!haha we should remain close just because.. Oh db? Dami kong natutunan kay Fr. Dax..haha
Sige, stop na ko.. Mas mahaba pa ata to sa entry mo..=P
Cheer up! I'm always here for you no matter what ok?
Baboo!!=P
okay lang mas may utak ka naman eh. heller baller sinikmura ko yung physics grade na yun noh! bwahahahaha!! hay kung di lang lenten season magmumura tlga ko okay!? at take note, hindi ka na-waitlist sa ateneo! yun lang, pareho tayong di pumasa sa up hehe.
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