Soon it's Christmas

yeah.. 2 days to go before Christmas.. but a lot has been bugging me.. im kinda wishing it wont come..

Christmas is usually the time when we are all happy since the family can be together. And of course, it's a celebration of our savior's birth. But then.. i just don't feel like celebrating it this year because:

1. It's now the time of the year when I get to realize that I am really getting old. We used to celebrate Christmas in my Grandfather's house in fairview. But when I was 7, he died, so we then celebrated it in my uncle's house since then. A lot of complications happened between my step-grandma and my grandpa's relatives. Anyway. Everyone in my mother's side celebrated Christmas there. Then, my mom's eldest brother died last last year. So thet's one down. After that,my mom's other brother, the owner of the house, died last year. Ok, that's minus two. Then my cousin and his family migrated to Texas. That's a total of six all in all. And my uncle's other friends who go to their house to celebrate Christmas with us have also migrated. So since last year's Christmas, I realized that when you get older, things really change.
2. My grandfather (my dad's dad) was diagnosed with cancer a few weeks back. And he is kinda weak now. I don't know. I keep on thinking that this Christmas might be his last. I cant get it out of my head. I just hate it.
3. I have thesis. And we have to pass our opman part on the 29th. So i have to work the whole christmas break. We also have a paper due on the 5th for strategic management and an exam also on the 5th. School is now making me insane!!!

Thank God for ARWAN!
I know it may sound cheesy and all but honestly, last night's Christmas party made me forget about all the worries that has been bugging me these past few days.

Anyway.. I'm out..

hope you guys have a MERRY CHRISTMAS :-)

***arwan xmas party pix in comtecharwan.multiply.com